Well there has been a lot on my mind and a lot going on, and not much happy stuff to report. A recent post by A :-) proves what I've known all along---that I pretty much hold onto the past. I have caught opportunities, though, which is how I came to work from home. The truth is, if I let go of my past I would only have stress and sadness, because that is the present. Currently pretty much everything that has come my way lately would be better dropped. Yesterday we buried my son-in-law, and every day I live with the hope that dad will beat cancer. There is no way I can move on because I cannot forsake my current duties of caring for someone who is ill. Life is not totally crappy though. Each day is special, each day has meaning, each day we try to move forward. There is still hope.
P.S. I love that song---Turn Turn Turn by the Byrds
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Oh Candy, I'm so sorry - so much sadness for you right now. It makes complete sense that you are not in the place of letting go - when I was in the midst of sadness 6+ years ago, it was all I could do to hold on. There is a time for everything . . . and for you, letting go is clearly not now. And that's totally OK. We are where we are. And that's as it should be, even when it's hard. I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
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